Wednesday, July 1, 2009

My Mum

Today is the anniversary of my mums death.

This is dedicated to my mum to let her know how much she was loved and is still desperately missed.

It is a shock to realise that you have been gone for a whole year.

Its more of a shock how my sister, brother and I have coped in your absence.

Every day I think of you mum.

The children all had superb report cards this year and you were not there to share them.

My daffodils that you advised me to pull up as they had not flowered for 3 years suddenly came into bloom in the woods......I thought of you.

Number 3 became the State Champion in the 2oo metres and I picked the phone up to call you.

Our new puppy Molly is so loving you would love her. I remember how good you were with Hamlet.

I am knitting a beast of a jumper and get into such a tangle yet I am determined to complete this monstrosity as I have no mentor to advise me over the phone.

I went to number 3's Kindergarten concert and had a flashback as you were here for the other two's concert. I had a good cry before I left and then thought of you and went to pick up a lady who has no car & took her to the concert to watch her niece....the sort of thing that you would do.

"Your view" over the lake is a constant reminder of your presence which I find comforting.

My garden is a jungle of tangled weeds, overgrown plants and STUFF...I need your advice on making it into an English cottage garden.

The children will all be in full time school in the fall .......I feel old!

Their wardrobes are going down hill rapidly since you were the main "tasteful" shopper.

Number 1 needs a fashion advisor...apparently I cannot fill this role!

I cannot reproduce your cheese and onion flan!

Number 3's blankie is deteriorating rapidly...there is no-one to mend it.

The recession is still in full force......is it due to you not shopping anymore I wonder?

Michael Jackson has just died.......can you remember when my heart had been broken and I played "One Day In your life for weeks non stop on the record player?" I still have the single yet of course no record player!

Sadly Farah Fawcett too has died....do you remember that I WAS Sabrina?

I promise that I will always wear lipstick & keep my standards up!

Mum you were a great inspiration to me and I only hope that I can follow in your footsteps.

I love you mum & miss you more than words can say.

XXX

4 comments:

Janice (aka HRH, Mme. L) said...

Ally, my Ally..I can't be her..but I CAN call more often to give knitting help over the phone ;) hugs from Madame L..xoxoxo

Anonymous said...

Oh Allison, this is so beautiful -- you have captured everything!!

much love, bluepoppy

Expat mum said...

Aaah - my heart goes out to you. I was popping over to invite you to comment at Pond Parleys as we're just about to post on friendliness (are Americans friendlier than Brits etc).
Losing parents is the pits isn't it? I have found though, it's best to keep talking about them - espwecially to the kids.
I'm in the same boat as you - all my kids will be in full time school in September, but since my oldest is 16, it's been a long time coming!

A Brit in Tennessee said...

A beautiful and touching tribute from the heart....it made me cry.
Why is it that when we lose loved ones, life is never the same ?